Sunday, August 02, 2009

Welcome to August

And what a changeable month it has been so far! Awful yesterday, beautiful today.

Interview on Friday went OK, certainly once it started I lost my nerves and seemed to be someone worth talking to, and they're a friendly bunch. Technical bit was slightly odd, since I think I was thinking around things too much, and not letting myself be led - whether this is good or not I wouldn't like to say - but all in all a positive experience, and I'm not an absolute idiot (like I was beginning to think). However, I'm not sure about the position as a whole, for several reasons; the need to make a very rapid decision should they offer, the technical instability of the company as a whole (finance until next April, but likely after that? Not a solid bedrock), and more to the point the issue of releasing from my current housing situation. I'm not sure about any of this, will need advice from several people at work.

My life otherwise? There's one big issue that bothers and I don't know how to confront it. P and I clearly have problems, but I don't know how to deal with it. If I bring up the subject, he appears to not want to talk about it - fair enough - but I get the impression that he feels it's wrong but doesn't want to act to rescue it. I don't know. Maybe I'm wrong, I hope I'm wrong, but I'm not really prepared to deal with this kind of stuff. The best thing to do might just be to leave it all alone, but then I don't want anything to escape through inaction on my part. And I obviously cant be psychic, much as it would be nice. I dunno.

Today is gorgeously sunny, and I'm going to go out in it once I've finished the household stuff; breakfast is cooking, I have all my stuff to put away and the hoovering to do, the bathroom to do, ordering stuff to do....but this is all by the by....