Sunday

Another early wakening, but this time I dug in and tried to force myself to sleep, and I'm pretty sure I got off again, though it did take a while. Hopefully I can keep on doing so once I'm home again, and I think part of the problem is the piss-poor quality of the mattress at home. So though my intentions of not spending money still hold good, I think I'll have to invest in a new mattress. I'm almost tempted to ask my landlord to remove the old bedstead, so I can sleep on the floor, but that might be just too trashy for words.

Have been looking up alternatives to my phone plan, since I seem to be paying a bomb for it. Silly me flung out all my bills though, so I haven't got a baseline reference to look at, but the plan I'm on should be costing less, so I'm either making a helluva lot of calls, or texts, or I don't know what else. Maybe there's an after-seven thing with the cheap calls that I'm not sticking to.....either way, as I said before, I need to manage it a bit more, and I think that I've found a way to do it, though it does mean not having a new phone with it. Anyhow.

Paid in some dollars to my account that I've had hanging around with me for years, right back to when I didn't go to Peru, but never changed them back. Well, they've gone in and are making my account look healthier, but I don't really want to just spend them off pat as it is, 'cos in a way it was a little money bolthole.

But for something more interesting. Met up with my sister on Saturday, was boggled in mind by the way my neices are growing up so quickly and one is now definitely a little person rather than some baby/toddler/dribbling lump. Had a long sit and a long chat in a cafe, basically therapy on my part with lots of sobbing, bawling and being a bit childish, but it was good to let it all out, and it has built up my confidence somewhat and also motivated me to sort out something with Gran's legacy and pensions and the like. Big grown-up decisions to be made, all about stuff that I really don't find interesting, didn't really ever want to deal with, but now is apparently one of the most important things you need to do. Bummer.

Have also come down to see P again on Saturday evening, and have been spending a lazy Sunday. But I think I'm going to have to have a weekend or so at home, just so I can try and fix some of the money things (thank god banks open Saturday these days), though it is a lot shit staying away. I get lonely and frankly quite bored not being around people.

Might go and have a little nap....