Keep it on up!
Well, I said I'd make more of an effort, so here we are....though I make no promises about post length; it may be just little thought about food, or about lunch, but....
I'm feeling a lot better about myself today. Have spoken to the boss and to several other people and am feeling quite a bit more relaxed about what I have to do next. Scary thoughts still, but I think I'll be more than OK; the question is just how soon I'm going to get there!
Back at home - well, I'm not going to call it home anymore on here, because it's more 'where I happen to live right now', since home is definitely in one place, and that's with P. And I suppose my home-home that I grew up in, and where my Dad still lives home. Odd thought that he still is there, and that house is still full to the gills with lots of my old stuff, that I don't know what I'm going to do with. Our family being the hoarders that we are, I've kept quite a lot, a lot of stuff over the years that fills me with hard memories sometimes, but I can't bear to throw it away. Feels heartless, you know? Like hacking yourself away from the past, even though it is the past and isn't about to happen again anytime soon. Daft, but there you are.
But yes, back at home, and have cooked some dinner for tomorrow, made lunch and had some sandwiches, and now the evening is my own. Not sure what to do with it, but I reckon I'm going to just totally chill out, not worry about things and maybe do some reading or relaxed WoW. And definitely have a bath, since my skin is quite dry after yesterday's little dip in the sea. No infections from dirty seawater just yet.
Weather is a little bit crazy at the moment, hope it's nice again tomorrow as it really is still too warm for a coat, but if it's damp, then I can't do without the cover!
I'm feeling a lot better about myself today. Have spoken to the boss and to several other people and am feeling quite a bit more relaxed about what I have to do next. Scary thoughts still, but I think I'll be more than OK; the question is just how soon I'm going to get there!
Back at home - well, I'm not going to call it home anymore on here, because it's more 'where I happen to live right now', since home is definitely in one place, and that's with P. And I suppose my home-home that I grew up in, and where my Dad still lives home. Odd thought that he still is there, and that house is still full to the gills with lots of my old stuff, that I don't know what I'm going to do with. Our family being the hoarders that we are, I've kept quite a lot, a lot of stuff over the years that fills me with hard memories sometimes, but I can't bear to throw it away. Feels heartless, you know? Like hacking yourself away from the past, even though it is the past and isn't about to happen again anytime soon. Daft, but there you are.
But yes, back at home, and have cooked some dinner for tomorrow, made lunch and had some sandwiches, and now the evening is my own. Not sure what to do with it, but I reckon I'm going to just totally chill out, not worry about things and maybe do some reading or relaxed WoW. And definitely have a bath, since my skin is quite dry after yesterday's little dip in the sea. No infections from dirty seawater just yet.
Weather is a little bit crazy at the moment, hope it's nice again tomorrow as it really is still too warm for a coat, but if it's damp, then I can't do without the cover!
posted by J at 7:28 PM
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